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Name: Janna
Location: Illinois, United States
Birthday: 12/4/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: I am a student at Illinois State University and soon to be elementary school teacher. Usually spending a great deal of my time with the Big Red Marching Machine aka the marching band here at ISU, as a member of the colorguard. Another big chunk of my time is spent with the wonderful women of Epsilon Sigma Alpha, my service soroity. We raise tons of money for St Jude's Children's Research Hospital and Easter Seals. And any other spare time is spent with my amazing boyfriend, who keeps me sane:)
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AIM:  jbannana48
Member Since:
10/10/2004
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| So this semester is almost done. 1 test tonight, a presentation tomorrow, and then just 2 more tests next week. Thank the Lord! I already know that the month off is going to seem like a week and a half. Oh well I'm ready for Christmas! I had better get back to the homework before i run out of time | | |
| Wow have I had a long 2 weeks...The funeral for David was nice except for his father's speech but what are you going to do with an attention starved, bi-polar, grieving man? And then today is Brandon's funeral but I couldn't get home for it because I had a night class and wouldn't have gotten home until after it was over. I think that Meg, Ashley, Brandon(a different one), and I are going to go pay our respects over break. There had been way to much death in the past 6 months. It had been a long time since I had been to a funeral so hopefully I won't have to go to another one for quite a few years. Let's pray for that.
So Thanksgiving break started today, for me. It's about damm time!!! I need to make some money for presents. Yes buddy I can't wait to eat all the wonderful food in 7 days...you gotta love gaining about 12 pounds in one day. Then the shopping begins. I have a few presents in mind but we'll have to see what I end up having money for.
Break will be a nice change of pace but I do have a substantial amount of homework to finish while working for my dad everyday. Oh well at least I won't be at night class on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thrursday. Seriously what the hell was I thinking when I registered last semester? Well I think that's all for now I'll give an update later on. | | |
| So I've been a little busy lately and haven't posted so here goes:
Halloween was great I was a playboy bunny and Dan was Hugh Heffner...it was awesome. My brother came down so that was fun and we made his costume, he was Steve Irwin attacked We had a great time at Courtney's(my little sis) Friday night and then rocked out the party at the house on Saturday night. It was a pretty good weekend.
So this coming weekend is our last football game, my last show ever I'm sure Laura will end up making me cry but it will be a good day. Who would have ever thought that colorguard would be the place where I would meet the truest friends? Man I am going to miss those girls. I am going to have to get my ass in gear and start keeping in touch with them a little better. | | |
| ok so i'm a moron and posted the thing twice. ya i know i'm a retard | | |
| I appologise in advance for this entry. It's going to to be morbid, emotional, and sappy, but I just need to get some things out.
Wow has it really been 3 months, to the day no less, that my grandma passed away? In terms of missing her it's been so much longer. I hate going home and not having to go visit her. Going to her house, which is now my uncle's, where nothing is the same. She was the most wonderful woman I have ever known. The dynamic of my entire family is based around her. I am so close to all of my cousins, and I only live in the same state as two of the twenty five. I miss her being there and listening to me talk about my life, college, dan, and actually being interested. She never missed anything that we ever did. I can only pray that I will be as strong as she was. I want to be there for my mother the way that my mom was able to, but I know that I won't. I want my kids to be able to spend time with their grandparents every week like I was. My Mormor(grandma in swedish) gave me so much. I cherish every piece of advice, every hug, every card she ever gave. The saddest part of my weeding day will be that I will miss her and my grandpa so much, they will never get to hold my kids and be proud of me for growing up the way that I did. I always knew that she wouldn't be around for any of those things, she was almost 70 when I was born. I remember all the fun times we had with her at their house playing doctor or marbles, dressing up with all of her jewelry and robes, clunking around in her enormous shoes, and making potions in the sink. The most bittersweet memory was when I was little, I would always put on every single pieve of jewelry she owned and walk around like a movie star. So one day, after I put every piece on, I walked out to the table and asked her if I could have her jewelry when she died, keep in mind I was around 7 at the time. My mom yelled at me for saying such a thing but Mormor just laughed and said of course if you would enjoy it, it's yours. Years later, after I had gone to college, Mormor asked my mom one day if she thought that I would still like to have her jewelry after she died. My mom was the one who laughed this time and said of course. I know that I will be wearing at least one piece of her jewelry at my wedding. The scariest thing was that I knew she was going to die the night she did. It was really wierd but I could stop thinking about her and crying cause she hadn't been doing very well. Woke up the next morning and my room smelled like flowers, didn't think much of it at the time. Took a shower, ate some breakfast and got the call from my mom. Went to work and got the next few days off so I could go home. Maybe it was a coincidence, but maybe it was her way of letting me know that it was all ok now.
I love her so much and I always will. She was the most inspirational woman I have ever had the plearsure of knowing and loving. I know that she is in heaven now with Grandpa George looking down on me and telling me not to be upset because she's fine. She is no longer suffering from her long fight with breat cancer. I will never forget her and the way that she loved everyone. I just hope that I will be somewhat close to as good as a wife, mother, aunt, grandmother, great-grandmother, and friend as she was. Love you Mormor | | |
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